Monday, October 5, 2009

Shhhh...

Hey, keep your voice down, I don't want to attract any attention.

Forgive me Father, it's been - how long? 5 months since I blogged. Wow, time just zips the hell on by, when you're out of the house and knee-deep in La Vita Loca. Or more accurately, La Vita Broka. But as nice as huge piles of cash would look, lying around the house, I can't complain.

Life IS good.
The guys are doing well in school, making friends and good grades.
The Gorilla-man (aka, the hub) and I are solid. Getting ready to celebrate 18 years this month. How the hell that happened? Beats me - I'm just working for the weekend, you know?

I'm also almost 30 pounds slimmer and a lot stronger than I was back in May.
When I joined the gym in mid-May, I could barely reach down to tie my shoes, I got winded walking a block, and I felt like I was suffocating everytime I lay down to sleep. Now, I'm busting ass for an hour and a half at the gym 4 times a week - getting the heartrate up and lifting weights, and I feel better than I've ever felt before.

Bea has been right there as well, though she goes at night and I go during the day (except for Saturday and Sunday, when we go together). I think she's lost about the same - I know we both have funhouse mirror perspectives about ourselves, but I can tell she's gotten trimmer, more compact. We are just getting better and better all the time, and by this next spring, we are going to be a pair of buff bitches. "Yeah, that's the ticket!"

I've thought about coming back in and writing - I like writing, and when I do it consistently, I can see how much better I get at it. But the hours of time spent socializing with other bloggers, while interesting, insightful, fun even, it's time away from my real life. When my eldest son told me last spring, "Wow Mom, you sure spend a lot of time on the computer blogging. You must really like it," I had the wake-up call. Because there is nothing more important to me than making sure my kids feel like they have my full attention when they need it, and honestly? Being in the blogger groove was making that mission statement a bald lie.

I miss you guys, no, I really do. I want to find a way to continue blogging, but not compromise the job I do as a mom and a wife, and a friend. I can't guarantee I'll be here every week, or that I'll be on top of reading your posts as soon as they publish, but I will be there, albeit late (So what else is new, right?!)

14 comments:

Bantering Bibliocrat said...

welcome back Becky! I missed you! congrats on the gym time. hooray for striking the balance between online and real life. hope to see you again soon in both....the Bibliocrat

we_be_toys said...

And when someone like the Bibliocrat (who I respect so very much as both a writer and a person) says they miss me, I have no choice: I have to write.

Sorry for the pee-pee ca-ca substance on this one G - I'll do better next time.

Maggie, Dammit said...

Always a pleasure to see you pop into my Reader! And 30 pounds?? 18 years??? That's pretty amazing, girl.

You are so right to focus on your family. I'm going through the same thing and I still don't know how to resolve it.

xo

Deb said...

So nice to see you post. And wonderful to hear how well things are going in your life.

30 pounds. Well done!

Heather said...

Nice to see you whenever the mood strikes! Congrats on the exercise. We always like you!

flutter said...

love you, that's all

FairiesNest said...

Hey Sis! Welcome back!

Arizaphale said...

Hooray hooray! I missed you too and I am blown away impressed by your weight loss. I kneel before you! I am not worthy. I have to go to the gym NOW!
I think there are many of us struggling with the whole blog v real life thing. I have to keep reminding myself that my initial purpose was to keep family and friend in the UK up to date on our life here. That helps me keep focused whenever I think I am descending into daily minutiae as A Free Man calls it. I always get a buzz when you call by. Keep up the great 'life' work gal and I'll be pleased to see you when you're free.
Oh and congrats on 18 years. Woah. Impressive.

A Free Man said...

I worry about that sometimes too, the amount of time I spend blogging. It's a lot less than it used to be, but I can waste away a morning if I don't pay attention. I think it is a matter of moderation. But that's something I've never been very good at.

Nonetheless, really glad to see a post from you. And your comment helped save my sanity today.

Vodka Mom said...

it's so wonderful to see you. And you know what? I get it.

Ben and Bennie said...

Wow! Keep kicking ass! we'll still be here.

BrightenedBoy said...

Glad you're back.

Gypsy said...

So nice to see you 'round these parts again. I hope you find a way to stick around.

And holy crap! 30 lbs!? Go you!

Chris said...

Congratulations on the 30 pounds and the 18 years of marriage! Wonderful!

I struggle with the time-suck of blogging too. I enjoy writing and the feedback [don't we all], but it's difficult to find a rhythm that feels right with time spent visiting others.

So GREAT to see you! XO